My reason to be alive is the opportunity to invoke the warm, colorful and exciting adulthood I dreamt of as a child.

Just through simple things like thrifting clear for my house, striking conversations with strangers, giving my friends my space key, and just doing whatever the fuck I want because I am free and independent and I can experience youth and womanhood the way none of the women that came before me had the freedom and opportunity to.

To be able to see new cities, eat different food, talk to new people, spend time with old friends and watch each other experience together and differently.

The idea of a future where I get to fall in love again, with a wonderful person whom I will choose and build a life with, have children, experience community, family and so much more.